Friday, December 3, 2010

Christmas Time!:)

Today we put our christmas stuff up and went and bought our christmas tree. Despite the cold weather, Christmas time if my favorite:) I love everything about it.... the lights, the trees, the snow, sledding:).... and the smell of christmas trees. I found myself today still telling my mom what i want for christmas. Then i came back to what i was thinking about and thought i am missing the whole point of christmas. I was only thinking about what i wanted for presents and money and stuff. But this is about the birth of christ and being with your family. When you miss that, christmas is just not even the same. My grandma puts up happy birthday signs all over her house for christmas because she is really celebrating Jesus's birthday:) haha. And i've thought about it and its okay to think about presents for christmas as long as you remember what christmas is really about.
There was this little boy named Dax who was diagnost with leucemia cancer last year around christmas time and it got the whole town putting up lights for him.... they thought he wouldn't make it to see christmas so they celebrated it early. It turned out he did get to see one last christmas. There is this video on youtube that is a song about him and it is so sweet but its really sad.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ye39mgcHC3E
This song makes me cry....

This is the christmas tree we bought:).... I hung the star:)


Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Behind the Scenes?

I thought some people might be wondering why I picked "behind the scenes" as the title for my blog. It's not really just random, there is something behind it. I've thought about judgement lately. I watched this movie called "To Save A Life" and i reccomend it big time because it was amazing. It showed me something about people that you see everyday in everyone even in yourself. When you see or hear someone you don't know, you automatically judge them in a way that could be good or bad. Most of the time you look at what there wearing or what they are doing or even the words that they say. It's almost impossible not to look at someone and make a judgement even on people you love. You could look at your best friend and think "her hair looks really pretty today" or you could look at them and think her "she needs to do her hair better." Both of them are judgements. Sometimes you can misjudge someone, but once you get to know them usually you think something totally different than what you judged them for. For example, There was this girl in math class that I sat by at the beginning of the year. I thought she was totally crazy and weird.... but I thought it was kind of annoying. I actually started talking to her and then I started texting her and then we started to hang out. Now this girl named Emily is my best friend and he hang out like everyday. So i thought what this had to do with "Behind the Scenes" is that once you know someone you think totally different of them..... When you read this blog you know me one step better than you did before. So, its kind of like my behind the scenes. Behind the Scenes is actually a song. I didn't make up the title by myself i got it from a song by Francesca Battestilli. The chorus of this song goes.....

Things aren’t always what they seem
You’re only seeing part of me
There’s more than you could ever know
Behind the scenes
I’m incomplete and I’m undone
But I suppose like everyone
There’s so much more that’s going on
Behind the scenes.....

It is a good song and you should listen to it. But i thought it was a good one to use just thinking that you will get to see a part of me that you may not have known.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

1 year = November 18th

Exactly One year ago from today we burried my dog dodger in our back yard. I came home from school and I didn't even get to say goodbye. But, if i could do that whole day over again I would in a second. I woud have at least been able to tell him goodbye before i left for school that morning and I would have known what was coming rather than coming home to the worst suprise you could ever imagine. I was at my friends house today who also has a Golden Retriever named Otter.... I just looked at him today and all i could see was dodger. Emily looked at me and knew i was sad but i kept trying to laugh so i would not. But then she came over and gave me a hug and tears rolled down my cheek. It is harder than you may think to lose a dog especially since they don't do anything wrong and all you do is love them. It was really hard at first and sometimes I still think he should be laying around somewhere on the floor like he always was, but he is not anymore. R.I.P. Dodger. November 1, 1996- November 18, 2009.

Monday, November 8, 2010

The Love of a brother and his Sister

During camp in 2010 it was during Worship, Me My Cousin Kristen and Rachel and some others were down in front worshiping. I looked back and I saw Josiah back there with his hands raised to God. As soon as I saw that i just felt an amazing love for my brother. I wanted to just go tell him how much I loved him and give him a hug. I was a little bit hesitant and i didn't know why. But these lyrics came on that said something like "You'll never have another chance like this" and i knew i wanted to do it. So i walked up to him and tapped him on the shoulder and he turned around and gave me a big hug and leaned down and said he loved me and tears started coming down my face as i said i love you too josiah. I had never felt so close with josiah but i know that it made me feel like i had the best big brother in the whole wide world. I think sometimes a big brother is very important to a girl because they make them feel like they always have your back. Now josiah doen't like to show that as much but i still know that josiah would do anything for me and i would do anything for him. At momentum this year the same thing happened. Me and josiah were right next to each other and we were just worshiping and i wanted to give him a hug again but i was waiting for the right time. When worship was over i thought it was too late and i was just standing there but like 2 seconds later he came to me and gave me a hug and i told him that i loved him again. The love 2 siblings could have for each other is truely amazing.     

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Family and Friends(:

I love this picturee! I took it(:
This is me and briona. You can't see her face that well but it was thee only picture i had of her. She's an amazing cousin! <3 ya(:

This is Emily! She's is My other half((: We lovee friday night football games!!!<3 haha
This is my little brother jacob(: Dont you just wish you were still little enough to do that?(:

This is me and Victoria. She is pretty awesome if i do say so myself(:... <3

(from left to right)Olivia,Rachel,Josiah,Amanda(: My siblings... minus jacob. Unfortunatly he couldn't get in this picture.

 This is my older brother josiah... he's definitly a weirdy!!! but ya gotta love him(:


Me and my older sister Rachel.... and jacob in the backround(:




If you can't tell Jacob gets a lot of attention!... But i love him so much(:



 A couple pictures of mee.


My puppy angel(:


Saturday, October 16, 2010

My Life Story.

          So it began i little over 14 years ago on September 25th 1996. I was born in Oklahoma. I lived there for about 3 years. Then we moved to Illinois. I've always been raised as a christian. I go to public school so its been tough at times to stay where i need to be but with the help of Jesus I'm exactly where I should be and I've never had to go through something too tough without him by my side. Jesus & Family is always #1! But also I have some of thee most amazing friends.
          Now to tell you about my family, I have 2 brothers, 2 sisters, and of course a mom and a dad. First of all. My oldest brother Josiah.
Josiah- We fight, we yell, we get mad... but we also love. I've had thee best memories I could ever ask for with Josiah. I couldn't have asked for a better big brother. I remember as we were little and we always went outside and played games all together. If I could go back to anytime it probably would be then because I miss being little with you and the rest of my siblings playing outside. But, when we were in like junior high we stopped playing games as much and now I regret it because I don't see you as much. Now when I see you I try to make the best of it. I never wanna grow apart like I've seen some siblings do. As cheesy as it sounds I wanna stay close to you. I love you Josiah!
Rachel- We get mad over little things, We yell at each other, We borrow each others close... One thing we definitely are is best friends. We can talk about anything to each other. And when we lose all of our friends thee only ones here for us is each other. I thank God that he gave me a sister like you to be here for me. I couldn't have asked for a better older sister. No matter if we're mad at each other or not one thing for sure is I will never stop being here for you. I love you Rachel!
Amanda- I can't count how many times in my life we've gotten in fights or yelled at each other, or got mad at each other. I know we have to share a room and both of us can't stand it but some day we won't have to share a room anymore and we'll both be happy(: Just remember that even when I get mad at you I never stop loving you. Love you Amanda!
Jacob- Wow! What can i say? I love you to death!!! You make me laugh every day. And never in my whole entire life could I ask for a better 2 year old brother!!! I love you Jacob!!!!(:
Mom & dad- I know your always here for me and I'm glad to have you as parents.  I know you have to go through a lot raising 3 teenagers and 2 little kids but we all love you! And couldn't ask for better parents. You've raised us your best and I'd have to say you did a pretty good job!(: I love you Mom & Dad.
          I'm a Freshman now and I can't even believe it but we all have to grow up. I hope you liked my first blog. Leave Comments or Ask Questions.