Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Behind the Scenes?

I thought some people might be wondering why I picked "behind the scenes" as the title for my blog. It's not really just random, there is something behind it. I've thought about judgement lately. I watched this movie called "To Save A Life" and i reccomend it big time because it was amazing. It showed me something about people that you see everyday in everyone even in yourself. When you see or hear someone you don't know, you automatically judge them in a way that could be good or bad. Most of the time you look at what there wearing or what they are doing or even the words that they say. It's almost impossible not to look at someone and make a judgement even on people you love. You could look at your best friend and think "her hair looks really pretty today" or you could look at them and think her "she needs to do her hair better." Both of them are judgements. Sometimes you can misjudge someone, but once you get to know them usually you think something totally different than what you judged them for. For example, There was this girl in math class that I sat by at the beginning of the year. I thought she was totally crazy and weird.... but I thought it was kind of annoying. I actually started talking to her and then I started texting her and then we started to hang out. Now this girl named Emily is my best friend and he hang out like everyday. So i thought what this had to do with "Behind the Scenes" is that once you know someone you think totally different of them..... When you read this blog you know me one step better than you did before. So, its kind of like my behind the scenes. Behind the Scenes is actually a song. I didn't make up the title by myself i got it from a song by Francesca Battestilli. The chorus of this song goes.....

Things aren’t always what they seem
You’re only seeing part of me
There’s more than you could ever know
Behind the scenes
I’m incomplete and I’m undone
But I suppose like everyone
There’s so much more that’s going on
Behind the scenes.....

It is a good song and you should listen to it. But i thought it was a good one to use just thinking that you will get to see a part of me that you may not have known.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

1 year = November 18th

Exactly One year ago from today we burried my dog dodger in our back yard. I came home from school and I didn't even get to say goodbye. But, if i could do that whole day over again I would in a second. I woud have at least been able to tell him goodbye before i left for school that morning and I would have known what was coming rather than coming home to the worst suprise you could ever imagine. I was at my friends house today who also has a Golden Retriever named Otter.... I just looked at him today and all i could see was dodger. Emily looked at me and knew i was sad but i kept trying to laugh so i would not. But then she came over and gave me a hug and tears rolled down my cheek. It is harder than you may think to lose a dog especially since they don't do anything wrong and all you do is love them. It was really hard at first and sometimes I still think he should be laying around somewhere on the floor like he always was, but he is not anymore. R.I.P. Dodger. November 1, 1996- November 18, 2009.

Monday, November 8, 2010

The Love of a brother and his Sister

During camp in 2010 it was during Worship, Me My Cousin Kristen and Rachel and some others were down in front worshiping. I looked back and I saw Josiah back there with his hands raised to God. As soon as I saw that i just felt an amazing love for my brother. I wanted to just go tell him how much I loved him and give him a hug. I was a little bit hesitant and i didn't know why. But these lyrics came on that said something like "You'll never have another chance like this" and i knew i wanted to do it. So i walked up to him and tapped him on the shoulder and he turned around and gave me a big hug and leaned down and said he loved me and tears started coming down my face as i said i love you too josiah. I had never felt so close with josiah but i know that it made me feel like i had the best big brother in the whole wide world. I think sometimes a big brother is very important to a girl because they make them feel like they always have your back. Now josiah doen't like to show that as much but i still know that josiah would do anything for me and i would do anything for him. At momentum this year the same thing happened. Me and josiah were right next to each other and we were just worshiping and i wanted to give him a hug again but i was waiting for the right time. When worship was over i thought it was too late and i was just standing there but like 2 seconds later he came to me and gave me a hug and i told him that i loved him again. The love 2 siblings could have for each other is truely amazing.